BE MY SOULMATE ♥

May 13

I thought I’d be okay if I see you again but I’m not. I got sadder cause it felt different. I had fun, yes. It was something we rarely did when we were together but it hurts because it made me realize that you don’t care about me anymore. That it was that easy for you to get rid of your feelings. Maybe you never really loved me and it sucks cause all I ever did was to love you with everything that I am. I thought I’ve moved on but I haven’t. I thought it’d be easier this time but it’s not. I wanted to hug you so tight, have your arms around me and feel safe again but it didn’t happen. It’s so hard to accept that things will never be the same again. But I have to. I need to. For the sake of my own happiness. Hopefully, this will be my last blog addressed to you. I’m sorry for not being good enough for you and your family. I will always love you, Siopao. Always.

Even if it’s never gonna be the same again, I want to tell you that I will always love you no matter what happens.

Mar 18

I really hope so.

To my love,
Last night, I did something I never thought I’d do. You have no idea how hard it was to muster all that courage just to ask you to call. It was one of the most painful thing I had to do in my life. I want you to know that I never want to let you go but I had no choice. It seemed like you didn’t want me in your life anymore. It seemed like I was just an option. I tried to hold on for as long as I can. I was waiting for you to want it was much as I do but you didn’t. I felt like an accessory in your life cause you’d only put me out when you want to. I tried to talk to you about our “relationship”, my life, your life and everything in between but you never seemed interested. It was so painful not being able to talk to you like I used to. I wasn’t asking for you to dedicate your whole life to me. I was just asking for a little bit of time and respect. You told me being with me felt like a responsibility. It hurt a lot but I guess that’s my cue. It was time to let go. I don’t wanna put you in a situation wherein you’re forced to do something you don’t want to do. I want to thank you for all the memories we had together and all the lessons you taught me. Thank you for being with me for almost two years. I had the best time with you. I’m sorry for the times I’ve been a big bitch to you and I want you to know that I appreciate your patience. I’m sorry if I made you feel like you weren’t enough. I love every bit of you. I want to thank you for being yourself around me. I love you always, Ghio. From your siopao, Jyn.

Mar 10